Renesmee ; The daughter of Bella And Edward ♥
Sunday, August 23, 2009
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6:31 AM
She lov'd me for the dangers I had pass'd,
And I lov'd her that she did pity them.
Othello, scene iii
My story being done,
She gave me for my pains a world of sighs:
She swore, in
faith, 'twas strange, 'twas passing strange;'Twas pitiful, 'twas wondrous pitiful.
Othello, scene iii
Renesmee ; A miracle
Friday, August 21, 2009
;
3:53 AM
An nyoung hah sah yoh.
:)
Listening to beethoven's virus now.
:]
Wrist feels like its been dislocated.
sigh.
sighhhs.
:/
Anyways.
Watched 'Where got ghosts?'
It was hilarious, touching, shocking, scary. :D
Another reccommended movie.
haha.
Although it gets abit boring, but its still okay.
I guess.
I miss playing piano and violin already. :C
tomorrow's C.I.P.
I've decided to get a new BAG.
bagpack.
with Sp Pinku. :D
And maybe meg.
haha.
damned fucktard !
How dare you request t watch MOVIE with us ?
damn you.
fuckin' shit.
!!#%##^%&$^&*%^^&*@$^@#$%@$%^&*@%$@&4
_|_
who do you think you are?
SERIOUSLY, What is th point?
OH YEA.
Oh YEA I can so ABSOFUCKINGlutely see why.
You want to cause dispute between us.
Cause us to drop in our STUDIES.
then you can be a MORE HYPOCRITE.
And cause more dispute.
and cause more problems.
what a HYPOCRITE.
SUCH HYPOCROSY.
FUCK YOU, YOU BITCH BASTARD SHEMALE NOOBSHITTIE NOODBFUCK YOU SHOULD JUST GO DIE MAN !
WHAT DO YOU WANT EXACTLY?
WHY MUST YOU SEPERATE US?
ARE YOU EVEN IN THE RIGHT MIND?
DID TOO MANY STUDIES KILL YOUR BRAIN?
ARE YOU INSANE?
FUCK.
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NO.
WRONG.
I DONT THINK ANYONE WILL WANT TO FUCK YOU.
CAUSE YOURE NOT EVEN A BOY OR GIRL.
A BITH-BASTARD.
NO.
A FUCKTARD !
HAH.
YOU DARE SCOLD MEGAN A BITCH?
THEN WHAT ARE YOU?
AT LEAST IT MEANS THAT MEG IS MORE ATTRACTIVE.
YOU?
WHAT DO YOU UNDERSTAND OR KNOW?
NOTHING !
AND YOU GO AROUND AND SPREAD.
HA.
FOOL!
YOU GO BE A SHEMALE.
SHEMALE !
SUITS YOU BETTER.
OR GO BE AN EUNUNCH.
GO CUT OFF AND FRY YOUR C***!
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK.
YOU DISCRIMINATE OTHERS AND TRY TO DISPUTE EVERYONE.
WHAT.
YOU WANNA BE A GANG LEADER?
DONT GO TOO OVERBOARD.
YOU STILL EXPECT US TO FORGIVE YOU?
NO WAY !
DONT GIVE ME THAT PATHETIC FACE.
I DONT BUY THAT.
WE DONT BUY THAT.
AND WHO ARE YOU TO BOSS US AROUND?
YOU WANNA BE BOSS?
THEN GIVE US SALARIES LA!
NO.
I THINK WHOEVER YOU HIRE WILL JUST QUIT ON YOU, GIVEN YOUR ABSYMAL ATTITUDE.
YOURE .
SO.
DISGUSTING.
I CAN PUKE MY SHIT FROM MY MOUTH .
SO IRRITATING THAT I WANT TO RIP YOUR THROAT APART.
SO SICKENING THAT I WANT TO PUT YOU IN A GIANT BLENDER AND BLEND YOU TO BONES AND BLOOD !
_|_ !
SO WHAT IF YOU ARE GOOD IN YOUR STUDIES?
SO WHAT IF YOU ARE A SCHOLAR?
YOU HAVE SUCH A BLACK HEART.
FUCKINNOOBSHITBASTARDBITCHSHEMALEEUNUNCHSUCKINGSUCKERFUCK !
YOU WANT TO OUTDO EVERYONE IN A DESPICABLE WAY.
YOURE A CAD !
BASTARD !
FUCK !!!!!
GO DIE.
okay.
I gtg.
Father's going to come back again.
scold me again.
Bye.
An nyoung.
Renesmee ; A miracle
Thursday, August 20, 2009
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4:48 AM
an nyoung hah say yo.
Today.
HAND REALLY VERY PAIN.
wont talk much further.
had co today too.
disaster.
there's mass run tml.
dont know how im going to run.
HAND PAIN !
lot of people had their mouths hanging open when they saw my mummy hand today.
They're concerned about me.
haha.
repeasted my statement lots of time.
haha.
once again, GAMSAH HAMNIDA !
AN NYOUNG !
:]
Renesmee ; A miracle
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
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4:23 AM
An nyoung.
Today had home ec.
Quite okay.
Today was th most tense day of all.
Yet peaceful.
Abit happy.
ha,ha.
Today Co announced something.
We made decisions.
Worried.
Halfway playing through a song, suddenly my left wrist was so PAIN.
The pain was so intense that i cant even do ribrato.
:/
Whole socket feel so dislocated.
and pain.
And right until after co my Hand is shaking.
So painful >_<
Head felt kind of weird too.
Sometimes a piercing pain will shoot through me.
Sometimes it gets too burning hot.
Goddess.
What's wrong with me?
Today yw twin nv go home with me again.
Lucky, Took bus with Xinyi to interchange.
:]
Now listening to a song from FFX.
It's called Someday the dream will end.
Haha.
Okay.
Im going off soon.
To practice ERHU !
Received new scores today.
Zhan zai gao gang shang.
By zhang hui mei.
Z.
I deproved for my overall and side-reading skills.
Its in F and G major.
Haha-
:]
Heard that ABBA's medley is 9 pages.
Ohmy.
:/
WGS Dinner !
Looking forward.
(:
Haha.
Okay.
gtg.
An nyoung !
Nal saranghani?
Sarang hae yo ! :D
Renesmee ; A miracle
Sunday, August 16, 2009
;
3:25 AM
Hello people.
:]
This colour is something like Edward's hair.
haha.
;p
Watched the last few parts of Silent Hill on Channel 5 ytd.
LOL.
In the end I still dont get what the heck they are showing.
Last friday nobody was available to accompany me home after my sectional. :'(
Yiwei and Queenie had councillor.
Bronte wants to play badminton with the guys.
Megan was going to bake cookies with shuyi at her house.
Siuhui is tired and wants to go home.
Had planned to watch movie with them, but turns out i have sectional.
So Megan said that she has the movie in her house already.
So watch there.
huh.
Sometimes.
I'm so much an outcast to them.
Oblivious to them.
But, nevermind.
I've learnt that nothing is more important than standing on your own.
Nobody will even bother to talk to you.
Realistic and materialistic world.
But, dont worry.
I wont hate you guys.
I know what you all think of me.
Im a stupid , suckish fellow right.
:]
Anyway.
Now I realise , too.
Only a few friends stand by you.
Talk to you.
The others, no matter how good they treat you in the face.
They will still hate you, treat you rudely, discriminate you.
Leaving you with no respect.
I've realised that now.
No matter how happy you are with them, its all false.
All wearing masks.
Liars.
Okay.
Let's say something happy.
:]
After my sectional, when i thought that i was going home myself, I saw Michelle !
Loveeeee.
Haha.
We went to cwp.
Bought bbt and ordered my pasta takeaway.
Then we went home after that.
when i was about to put a little bit chilli flakes into th pasta, my hands shivered and th .
Whole.
Packet.
Was in th the pasta before i knew it.
Then I had no choice but to eat it all up.
Not even a bbt and green tea was enough to cover up the spiciness.
It was so spicy that my tongue went numb and prickly and my eyes had tears .
:/EW.
Ytd I had tuition before meeting with Guanyi they all.
When I woke , I was late.
Z.
F3.
After tuition , came home bathed and went to cwp.
Ben said that i put eye-cello on my eyelids.
Z.
I told him it was eye-SHADOW.
And he said it was the intrument , cello.
-_-
F3333.
Okay.
After I met with Guanyi and Ben . we went to civic's to eat.
While we were searching for seats, we saw a familiar silhouette outside.
Not really a silhouette, a boy.
Thn I had a feeling it was Dion.
But Guanyi said it was not.
So in th end Guanyi opened th glass door and called "dion !"
Then turns out it was Dion.
Hahahaha !
So funny.
And we saw a "Please do not sit, this seat is spoiled" sign.
Haha !
It was spoiled by ben and guanyi .
:D
So funny.
After that we found a small round table.
Dion joined us, me and Guanyi ate.
Ltr when I was about to finish, Richard came.
Then we waited for him to eat while ben showed us pics of miss universe.
Again.
Haha!
And in the midst of it someone from behind me spilled ice milo.
It flooded the floor around me and richard's chair.
LOL.
In the end a mac worker from the Lobby shift came and cleaned up.
Then we went to th library.
Syafiqah was with us too.
Stayed on the fourth floor and did th POEM.
:/
Not long after we found a table for four, richard and dion wrote one more stanza then we tell them to go play their badminton already.
haha, richard say he feels guilty.
Lmao.
:]
Then we worked on the poem.
Syafiqah left.
And we started re-arranging the poems.
Oh.
Ben laughed like hell when I showed him the Tyra Banks 'shoe fight' in Hannah Montana.
haha.
We saw a girl on the opposite table with a boy.
The girls jeans was so LOW, it showed her Butt.
Then Guanyi tried taking pics of it . -_-
Such a bad thing to do.
haha. :0
I read Eclipse until ben and guanyi are done, as I have no talent in poems, technically. (:
Then finally !
We're done.
Went to cwp, and Ben went home first.
Took the escalator to Uncle Tidbits.
Bought chocolates.
Pukish chocs.
They dont even TASTE like chocolates.
*vomits*
And I almost broke my teeth while trying to eat it.
Blehs
So walked around.
Okay.
My father is reprimanding me for th constant typing.
Th keyboard sounds gets on his Nerves.
Hahaha.
There's no show to watch today.
Eesh.
:/
So bored.
Okay.
Gtg.
Byeee. :]
Renesmee ; A miracle
;
3:25 AM
Hello people.
:]
This colour is something like Edward's hair.
haha.
;p
Watched the last few parts of Silent Hill on Channel 5 ytd.
LOL.
In the end I still dont get what the heck they are showing.
Last friday nobody was available to accompany me home after my sectional. :'(
Yiwei and Queenie had councillor.
Bronte wants to play badminton with the guys.
Megan was going to bake cookies with shuyi at her house.
Siuhui is tired and wants to go home.
Had planned to watch movie with them, but turns out i have sectional.
So Megan said that she has the movie in her house already.
So watch there.
huh.
Sometimes.
I'm so much an outcast to them.
Oblivious to them.
But, nevermind.
I've learnt that nothing is more important than standing on your own.
Nobody will even bother to talk to you.
Realistic and materialistic world.
But, dont worry.
I wont hate you guys.
I know what you all think of me.
Im a stupid , suckish fellow right.
:]
Anyway.
Now I realise , too.
Only a few friends stand by you.
Talk to you.
The others, no matter how good they treat you in the face.
They will still hate you, treat you rudely, discriminate you.
Leaving you with no respect.
I've realised that now.
No matter how happy you are with them, its all false.
All wearing masks.
Liars.
Okay.
Let's say something happy.
:]
After my sectional, when i thought that i was going home myself, I saw Michelle !
Loveeeee.
Haha.
We went to cwp.
Bought bbt and ordered my pasta takeaway.
Then we went home after that.
when i was about to put a little bit chilli flakes into th pasta, my hands shivered and th .
Whole.
Packet.
Was in th the pasta before i knew it.
Then I had no choice but to eat it all up.
Not even a bbt and green tea was enough to cover up the spiciness.
It was so spicy that my tongue went numb and prickly and my eyes had tears .
:/EW.
Ytd I had tuition before meeting with Guanyi they all.
When I woke , I was late.
Z.
F3.
After tuition , came home bathed and went to cwp.
Ben said that i put eye-cello on my eyelids.
Z.
I told him it was eye-SHADOW.
And he said it was the intrument , cello.
-_-
F3333.
Okay.
After I met with Guanyi and Ben . we went to civic's to eat.
While we were searching for seats, we saw a familiar silhouette outside.
Not really a silhouette, a boy.
Thn I had a feeling it was Dion.
But Guanyi said it was not.
So in th end Guanyi opened th glass door and called "dion !"
Then turns out it was Dion.
Hahahaha !
So funny.
And we saw a "Please do not sit, this seat is spoiled" sign.
Haha !
It was spoiled by ben and guanyi .
:D
So funny.
After that we found a small round table.
Dion joined us, me and Guanyi ate.
Ltr when I was about to finish, Richard came.
Then we waited for him to eat while ben showed us pics of miss universe.
Again.
Haha!
And in the midst of it someone from behind me spilled ice milo.
It flooded the floor around me and richard's chair.
LOL.
In the end a mac worker from the Lobby shift came and cleaned up.
Then we went to th library.
Syafiqah was with us too.
Stayed on the fourth floor and did th POEM.
:/
Not long after we found a table for four, richard and dion wrote one more stanza then we tell them to go play their badminton already.
haha, richard say he feels guilty.
Lmao.
:]
Then we worked on the poem.
Syafiqah left.
And we started re-arranging the poems.
Oh.
Ben laughed like hell when I showed him the Tyra Banks 'shoe fight' in Hannah Montana.
haha.
We saw a girl on the opposite table with a boy.
The girls jeans was so LOW, it showed her Butt.
Then Guanyi tried taking pics of it . -_-
Such a bad thing to do.
haha. :0
I read Eclipse until ben and guanyi are done, as I have talent in poems, technically. (:
Then finally !
We're done.
Went to cwp, and Ben went home first.
Took the escalator to Uncle Tidbits.
Bought chocolates.
Pukish chocs.
They dont even TASTE like chocolates.
*vomits*
And I almost broke my teeth while trying to eat it.
Blehs
So walked around.
Okay.
My father is reprimanding me for th constant typing.
Th keyboard sounds gets on his Nerves.
Hahaha.
There's no show to watch today.
Eesh.
:/
So bored.
Okay.
Gtg.
Byeee. :]
Renesmee ; A miracle
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
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3:35 AM
An nyoung !
:D
Got my first belated b'day present ytd .
From Yisuan.
Thanks !
Loveeeee.
Wonder what's my next present.
(:
Today.
there's lots of unhappy things.
FIRST.
th 2.4KM run.
omg.
I almost puked my guts out aft the run.
Yiwei twin PULLED me to the finishing line.
One round.
And that's all that takes to make me feel weird and puke.
Well, technically.
Th stomach juice came up first, and i could FEEL the other STUFFS following behind.
Thn th juice popped into my mouth.
Then i swallowed it down.
Its just so EMBARASSING if i puke my guts up.
right.
and i did this for THREE times.
Ohmygoddess.
I was RADIATINg heat waves from my WHOLE body.
and after i managed to sat down after the run , i cant really hear what people is saying.
Felt woozy.
:/
Then I stood up.
And i went zigzag ways.
So zig zagged that yiwei had to hold me UPRIGHT.
LOL.
Oh.
My feet's nerves are killing me, and th bones' socket in my left leg is sort of grinding against one another and its toooo painful.
and im dead beat.
:0
And, SKIP.
second unhappy event.
Today received back my english results.
DAMN !
i failed by ONE MISERABLE MARK !
and they were too STRICT.
Else i would get distinction.
okay.
dont talk about it anymore.
pissed.
CRAP !
:@
AND.
After school.
Came the ODAC.
oh god.
its mdm TAI DAWN.
crap, she made us run 2.4km.
kept walking but jogged to keep up the 'tired look'
and mdm tai said 3.30PM then release US.
so in the end.
My movie trip is CANCELLED.
CRAP !!!!
its practically the ONLY day.
Im free.
And she ruined it.
:/
oh GREAT.
HAHAHAHA.
Notfunny.
Now both knees hurts.
the bones' sockets.
and there's CO sectional tomorrow.
I could fairly predicet that th girl SHITING is not coming too.
Tomorrow my instructor's not here.
[he was in th news ! ask YISUAN ! :DDDDDDDD]
He's in LONDON.
so mr low is taking 'over'.
Best of lucks.
:/
soooooo dead tomorrow.
'kay.
im sick of posting.
buh-byeeeeee.
Renesmee ; A miracle
Monday, August 10, 2009
;
2:11 AM
okay.
I wanted to type finish my post already.
But in the end i pressed something.
and the WHOLE page went BLANK
.
CRAP !!!!!!
:0
okay.
gtg.
And i got my phone BACK !
:DDD
Ate at Pasta's just now too.
hohoho.
Percussion performance was GREAT.
Literally.
Post the details next time yea.
LOVEEEEEE.
(;
haha !
Byeeeeee.
An nyoung.
Renesmee ; A miracle
Thursday, August 6, 2009
;
5:08 AM
Hello people.
An nyoung.
Going off soon.
Shall skip all the formalities.
:]
Today went for Australian maths competition.
It was something like th UNSW papers I took back in pri. school.
After that rushed up to co room like mad people with queenie and yisuan.
And Guanyi.
(:
Now watching Paris and Milan.
haha.
Zhai Nan.
;p
Went straight to the Hall after dumping bag in co streroom.
And then i realised that my outer string broke.
And I realised why.
-___-
Today when taking 901 to school, the uncle suddenly stepped on the BRAKE pedal so hard.
That everyone fell forward.
.----.
And that's probably when it broke.
Had music common test today.
Cant believe that I got around 4 WRONG.
CHEH. !
okay.
Had rehearsal in the hall today.
Was SOOOO BAD.
Cant even manage to cover up the sec one's absymal skills.
Shermaine was worst off.
Sighs.
Dont talk about it.
Brings back bad memories.
Head throbbed so seriously I thought there was an earthquake in co just now.
Crap !
So pissed off at the SEC ONES.
no MOTIVATION.
Lack of BASICS.
cant even hold th erhu properly.
Not that im mean or anything.
But its FOUR MONTHS !
Other sections are improving so fast its incredble.
Seriously.
Are they a bunch of MORONS ?
Q@$@#%^%$^$&%*!#$%@$%^%$^&^
And they still have the mood to TALK.
Oh.
Today SHITING finally came back.
Mr Low also commented on her skills too.
Obviously, her, tht black white stripe junior and that youru got "PRAISED" for their "PERFECT" skills.
For youru I can understand at least.
She still ASKS.
as for others, I think i dont want to say.
HUH.
other than mr low, mdm ang also commented.
Oh.
People, you should congrats me.
I got "PROMOTED" from erhu 2's first place to the SECOND place.
Cause im a moron too.
HAHAHAHA.
SO funny.
Yea.
So funny that i almost peed my pants.
hahahahahahahahaha.
If things keep getting worse im gonna either start running away from co or just QUIT IT.
okay.
my show's ending.
Byeeeeeeeee.
An nyoung.
Cheon man neh yoh.
Nal saranghani?
Saranghaeyoh.
:D
Buhbyeeeee
Renesmee ; A miracle
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
;
3:39 AM
An nyoung hah sai yoh! :D
Maybe Im too used to using up so much energy that when i sit down now i have tons of energy to spare.
haha.
Kidding !
Just a bit HYPER.
hyper.
hyperbole.
hyperboleeeee.
hyperboleh.
haha !:D
I think I scored quite well for th science and maths paper today.
Ran NAPFA 2.4km, RE-TAKE.
PASSED !
First time that i passed.
:D
Me and Shawal passed.
Others failed. -.......-
Hm.
Ytd went to CO.
A rehearsal at the hall.
played matsuri once.
then we packed and went back.
Mrs Ong and Seniors co. was quite pissed off.
For our skills.
For our lack of teamwork.
Apparently most of the boys were slacking and leaving all th carrying to th girls.
Ohwell.
Skipped tuition today.
toooooo TIRED.
:/
yesterday in the midst of MATSURI back in co room, something akin to a miracle happened.
Was staring into space etc.
And suddenly th music that we are playing suddenly seems to drift away from me.
Like im in a tunnel.
And the voices and beats and sounds are getting more distant.
And suddenly I saw pitch BLACK for around 3-5seconds.
Feeling quite terrible back then.
Lucky me, I didnt puke my bile out.
:]
And during th pitch black darkness I could hear nothing.
So I was so STUNNED.
Quite.
haha.
:]
Okay.
Hm.
Its music common test tomorrow.
Oh. Crap.
Why must band's sounds be so alike ?
Craploads of crap.
Speaking of which.
Went to extra practice to day.
The first step i took into th room i was so shocked my mouth hung open like a goldfish.
:0
yes.
Its like that face.
:00000000
and full of question marks.
??????????????????????????
??????????????????????
?????????
Yes.
Something like that.
Cant believe th QUALITY that my DEAREST 4-5 juniors produced.
Hope they dont be such a letdown during performance.
Such bad luck.
:/
Wanted to visit my primary school beloved teachers and watch th sch's performance for NDP this friday.
Too bad im in th performing arts.
It always ruins my plans.
SHEESH.
Actual NDP performance is coming up in a few days .
This saturday.
><
okay.
An NYOUNG !
nal sarang ha ni?
sarang hae yo.
:D
HEARTS.
Renesmee ; A miracle
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
;
4:27 AM
An nyoung hah sai yo.
:]
Today was the second day of common test.
Also when there's co combined today.
Was so shocked when Queenie told me that ch told her that ms lam told him that there will be rehearsal in the hall today.
In the end we only played once , and that is MATSURI.
At 4pm.
After that, the band needs to use the hall for their rehearsal.
Or was it the councillors?
Or so i thought.
Who cares, anyway.
Today.
Can tell that quite a lot of seniors came back.
Can tell they were diappointed.
Me too.
Cant seem to understand what my section's juniors are DOING.
Of course, minus some good exceptions, that is.
:/
So tired.
So frustrated.
So angry.
So much things swimming in my head.
Just now in the midst of combined back in co room, My ears were suddenly ringing and I saw black for a few seconds.
Ohmygoddess.
Tomorrow is more WORSE.
WORST, actually.
Tomorrow, i have ODAC , for sure.
And there's the P.E.
Did I mention that P.E alone could be enough to kill me?
So after ODAC, there's still the percussion practice as well as Erhu practice.
Thought that Shermaine was too nice.
Too nice to not scold th juniors.
Mdm Ang even pointed it out that one of th sec one junior in my SECTION did not play at all.
Something like that.
And I thought it was my malay junior Afiqah.
In the end it turns out to be th junior that i taught just previous week.
ANG GOD.
You can say that my precision for skills are quite high.
I just told Shermaine that she really cant make it during the sectional.
She's tooo.
COLD.
too extinct.
Idk, she's too QUIET.
she said we need to talk smth like jokes around her , and that she's quite cool.
I dont know.
As if there's not enough problems in my hand already !
How I wish to be out of EVERYTHING.
My consciousness has been seeped almost dry.
Hopefully I'll faint tomorrow during P.E
Then get sent to hospital.
Or better.
Let me just FAINT .
And let me experience heaven.
Sighs.
I want my life to be like Edward and Bella.
And I would have no problem running.
No problem doing anything.
I will be the strongest in th whole, wide world.
ha,ha.
Sighs.
SO.
W.O.R.R.I.E.D.
Dont know what to do with that junior.
And after CO she was walking with her friend, behind me.
Then I heard her excuse, while complaining to her friend.
Such is the lamest excuse THY EVER HEARD !
:0
Was so stupid and lame that i froze there, gaping with my mouth open.
Or maybe something like it?
:/
She said " WAHLAO, the score on the floor leh [in hall, we didnt have stand] how expect me to see? Then I see the score already I cant play liao ma. "
HUH.
Then what about the others?
They still MANAGED.
and i DID ask her to go home and practice her instrument.
so PISSED OFF.
:@
Tomorrow's still a busy and hectic day ahead.
OH CRAP.
oh.
good.
There's still tuition TOMORROW NIGHT.
at 8.30
SHITT !
Should I chop myself up in pieces and do everything at once?
So tired.
I figure I'll be dozing off soon.
And there's still pretty much revision to do.
Hope i'll faint.
Having two- three most important papers tomorrow.
maths and scence.
probably even chinese paper one.
Oh . Crap.
Im sooooo going to die !
Kay.
resting early today.
an nyoung hah sah yo , fans. :]
Renesmee ; A miracle
Monday, August 3, 2009
;
3:55 AM
Hi people.
I've been thinking through a lot of stuffs today.
Today's also first day of common test.
As well as yw's b'day.
:]
Grats.
Recently, been thinking everything, in fact.
Decided to change my life.
I want to change my life !
I want to change my school !
Sometimes, I wonder if i'd chosen the right path.
Chosen, the right thing?
The right decision?
The right acquaintances?
The right school?
The right CCA?
The right live?
I'm so sick of having to go to school everyday.
Having to look positive.
Even if i dont.
until i cant take it anymore.
Really.
Im sooooooo tired of everything.
Now , it seems that everything is changing, changed?
Dont wish to talk about it anymore.
Maybe, I should get a LIFE.
Huh.
Its over my probation period.
Nobody even says happy birthday to me.
Oh well.
They celebrated yw's b;day though.
one biiiiiiiiiiiig cake for her.
Nothing for the rest of us.
not even presents.
OkAY,
im not going to elaborate further.
It's making me depressed soon.
From now on.
I may be changing blog.
This blog brings back, just too many memories.
Memories that im terrified to forget.
Reluctant to remember.
Think about, the sharpest tip of th knife in th whole world.
Stabbing it , inch by inch , deeper and deeper into your soul, and let it heal until its almost back to normal, but to do it again?
Imagine this process.
Again and again.
Im sick of it.
And yet sometimes they bring me happiness.
Remeniscing at everything.
Maybe, its time i let go.
How i wish i was never born.
No need to be born into this world.
No need to go through life, pain and death.
How I wish I would be in heaven enjoying eternity.
Free from everything.
You would feel nothing.
Even if there's any feeling, it would be nothing but happiness.
Yes, who doesnt wish for that kind of life?
No worries.
No problem.
:D
Okay.
People will think im crazy.
haha.
Time to sign off.
An nyoung hah sai yo!
Nal Sarang Ha Ni?
Sarang Haeyo . :]
XIAOMA LOVESSSSS FANS.
lovee.
takecares people.
Renesmee ; A miracle